The Lord is teaching me things that I have obviously known for so long.
I’m the kind of person who knows my day hour by hour. Even if that day has no requirements of me, I find a way to plan a day of something to do or not to do.
In the mix of all of this, the Lord is put on the back burner. That’s no good.
So this week, as I was praying, I asked the Lord to lead me in my devotional for that night. I kept hearing Proverbs and went with it. Then 16 came into my head. (You don’t ignore that little voice when you ask the Lord to lead you)
Why this next part is important: since I plan, my moods will go with my planning. If all goes according to MY plan, then I’m happy. If something gets messed up, I’m off a little bit. Quieter. More anxious. Maybe even angry. Once again, MY planning.
The plans of the heart belong to man,
but the answer of the tongue is from the LORD.
All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes,
but the LORD weighs the spirit.
Commit your works to the LORD,
and your plans will be established.
The LORD has made everything for a purpose,
even the evil men of the world.
What God was saying to me through this was: “Hey. I got this. Stop planning. It’s obviously not working for you. No, I’m not mad that you like to plan. I know you’re organized and you have to be. But rely more on me, I really have your life under control. More so than you know.”
I’m not saying I won’t be writing down due dates in my planner anymore, but I won’t so easily say “when I have kids, when I get married, when I get engaged, when I turn this age..blah blah blah”. I’m relying on the Lord to think ahead for me. Yea, I will know when I have a test, Yes I will know when to start studying. But if I keep planning my days fully in advance, how is the Lord ever going to use me for the kingdom of God if I’m angry when my plans change?
I love how the Lord is so open with me.